I promise...

Negativity - arghhhhh- it is a force which is never welcome in my life and one of the ways I have managed to deal with negativity is to create a negativity jar.  I have had to reintroduce the negativity jar back into my life because I realised that negativity was creeping back into my life - I then involved the Lady Leaders and we are doing this together.  For every negative thought, you insert R10 into a jar and wait until the end of the month to count your collection.  The aim is to try best not to increase the value in the jar.  With this negativity monitoring I realised that I was a tad little unloyal to myself so I have had to renew promises I had made to myself and I thought I should share them with you - please feel free to write up your own if you feel the need!

I Malebo Gololo promise myself today to continue #WalkingOnWater - remembering the call my LORD made to me to sacrifice modern day slavery for purpose.

I promise to continue #LivingOutLove irrespective of the situation around me, if I cannot do anything out of love then I might as well not do it at all.

I promise to continue loving myself more and not entertain the notion that I have to be a specific way in order to be loved, if I love myself first - then I will lead a more content life.

I promise to take care of myself - I will not choose work over sleep, I will not choose comfort eating over a healthy lifestyle and I definitely will never choose sleep over exercise

I pledge to smell the air and flowers around me for they remind me of the LOVE that my LORD has for me

I promise to accept the mistakes I have made and not dwell on regret, I accept who I am and who I am not, I undertake to work towards who I want to be

I promise that I will not second guess myself or entertain these voices that want to convince me that I am not worthy, I remember who I am and whose I am and that truth silences these voices

I promise not to be too hard on myself, even if people around me are hard on me, I will have my back and make sure that I do not break down because of hard criticism

I promise to take criticism for growth and not a tool to injure me, I will treat criticism like walking into a clothing store, when trying on a jacket - I will buy it if it fits and take it off if it does not

I promise to take care of my spirit, soul and body and will not ignore myself in the name of being a busy bee

I promise not to harp on voices that want to remind me that I was raped, I focus on the word "was" and realise that it was not about me but it was about the rapist, unfortunately I had to be the object that suffered his insecurities

I promise to be the ideal friend and girlfriend, I will give love and not become needy

I promise to accept every individual for who they are and not for who I want them to be

I promise not to be that sensitive and I also promise not to take too much offense 

I promise to be authentic to myself and others and speak the truth at all times. I also promise to accept the truth as much as I dish it out

I promise to try not be in control of so much, I promise to allow myself to fail and not fear failure. I promise to deal with my insecurities which informs this need to control

I promise to honour my parents

I promise to live with a heart of gratitude

I promise to seek contentment and not harbour any issues within

I promise to do what is right even in the midst of controversy.  I promise to uphold what I think is right for me, my friends, family and country

I promise to discover the power vested in me and use it carefully, discovering that I am no ordinary being so my gifts are extraordinary and do not belong to me alone

I promise never to sell my soul for a piece of silver but to always pursue my mandate - realising that I was made for such a time as this and if it means perishing for my mandate, then I will perish but my soul is not for sale





I promise to own a bucket list and make sure that I tick the list as I experience this life filled with adventure

I promise never to be a Afrikan sell out - I will always uphold my soil that defines me

I promise to try out whatever it is that I want to try out - but I will be safe while doing it

I promise not to allow any man have my heart as my heart belongs to GOD - I promise to seek true companionship and not sell myself out because of "falling in love"

I promise to enjoy every second bestowed upon me

I promise to be loyal to myself and stick to my promises

I promise to have fun and live like my life is Diamond

I know I am a woman of virtue and worth and I will not take that for granted, I will have a healthy relationship with myself : spirit, soul and body and will never sell myself out

I stopped aging when I was 16

When I discovered self-love, my world took a complete turn.  It is amazing how self-image issues can literally mess you up.  self-image issues have the ability to lie to you and make you believe that you can never ever live your best life.  I remember once upon a time where I had issues with the person I was on the outside, and funny enough, I hear and I am an advocate of inner beauty but someway somehow, if you still have issues with your outside, it will in turn affect the way you view yourself within.  So it seem like its a reciprocal relationship, one cannot survive without the other, you constantly need to make sure that you are working both angles simultaneously and keeping a balanced angle or one will suffer because of the other. Its almost like this phenomenon or craze that has taken over the world of "feminism" - where people think that patriarchy only damaged females so they only focus on the female species to bring about gender equality, meanwhile no matter how much you fix the female, its an injustice to leave the male out as it makes for an unequal equation (mmmm...I must remember to blog about this)

My issues have been mainly around my body image.  It is so intriguing that even at my skinniest, I have always believed that I am obese.  Going through the yesteryear pictures have brought some solace into mine soul. Today when I look at myself in the mirror, I see the person who is looking at it with no imaginary flaws. I see what I am and yes, I may not be where I want to be physically, but I have taken ownership of my life and love myself wholeheartedly. If I feed this oral fixation issue of mine, then I will remain just a little bit overweight. If I do what I have to do (exercise, eat healthy, live a fun life) then I will get where I want to get physically.  But its clear from these pictures that I stopped aging at age 16, I guess for now; I just mature with the years.

“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.”
― Sophia Loren